Shellen says:

after so many things have happened, i still gritted my teeth, used all my energy to block out those negative comments and hang on. i've said all i need to say. you said you believed and my trust was important to you. but, you gave me the fatal shot today. well done. and now, we are back to square one,ie: strangers. i thought you know me well enough, but you proved me wrong. why not, try putting yourself in my shoes, you might realise how exhausting all these can be. oh, you better don't. because it's totally just not worth of your time and brain cells because i am out most of the time. (: