Suddenly, i feel that i've been neglecting my dad! :( i didn't get to eat with him since last week. he has been asking me to be home early everyday and stuff and yet i always entertained him with a " ok ok". and he bought my favourite food for dinner, and yet i wasnt't home. he didn't know i was working as i didn't get a chance to tell my folks! his eyes were hurting earlier on, so i helped him with the eyedrop, and i realise he look so small. when i reached home, he still bothered to ask me whether i've eaten and stuff, and i snapped at him cause i was really tired. i didn't realise he was struggling to open his painful eyes to converse with me!

and i totally agree,with no hesitations, that no matter how old you are, you're always a baby in your parents' heart. Agree?

and before i forget,

Waitress: How do i address you, sir? Mr?
Gyeon: Shellen

okay. so i am mr shellen.

and i reckon when gyeon said shellen, the waitress will definitely spelt it as sharon! arghs. i hate it (x infinity) when people spell my name as s-h-a-r-o-n. No offence though.

Was out with Gyeon at botak jones for dinner. he's really my life saviour. my phone didn't even ring or beep the whole day! silent phone = no dates. and i had to settle dinner out, and i was wondering what should i eat and den my phone beeped.Gyeonamen smsed me. hee hee.

after dinner, we were at the park, being meanies! giving ratings to female joggers, oogling at muscular male joggers, fooling around in the playground gym,snapping around with the camera and chatting and stuff. we should do this again man! haha.

alritey. will be helping out at cottage pies tml! it's really such a nice, little cosy cafe. and trust me, they only serve home cooked goodness. i work there before, so i know. girls, please come and visit me okay? sandy dropped by yesterday, but she didn't know i left early to go maple clinic. i feel so bad but i've a feeling she will come again tml. wahaha. sandy, are you seeing this? ;)

i finally dragged myself to maple clinic and got some medication for my face. i went over to join ah jie after work. She's been there since 4.30pm, whereas i went over approx 7pm. wahaha. and we finished about 9.30pm! it's only 100 bucks, and it's cheaper than what i am expecting. i am sooo excited. hopefully, this will save my face luh.

btw, 85 will be closed for renovation till 22nd next month. so sad. :( Nick and i were so disappointed yesterday! and the ironic thing is, we didn't even notice it's closed when he drove past! and we even bother to turn into the carpark.Should have eaten the bak chor mee the other time! and in the end, we ended up at HK cafe.

ok. i am super shagged now. gonna go deliver food to the needy-s tml morning. G' night folks.

p/s: it's coming back. =)

i did something, i don't usually do. i asked nick out! wahaha. whenever i asked somebody out, there is bound to have some hiccups. hopefully, there is none tonight! you can't blame for not taking initiative anymore! wahahaha. ;)

anw, serviced. and i went to my aunt's place, and i am still here typing away. i went to the gym for 20 mins! wahaha. but i am going supper with nickyboy. so....ya.

ok. i am just gonna chill ard and wait for him to pick me up.

loves.

Just got back from town with Miss lee. seriously, there's nth much to shop nowadays! i got some necessities from watsons and she got 2 belts, and that's it. nothing caught our eyes! i saw mr kenny chan and azmil! haha. the first thing that come out from azmil's mouth is "wow, why u become so fat?!" :( and it's only like 3 mths since we last met in school? i really gotta start exercising! gawddd. but my body refuse to cooperate!!! =( miss motivation and mr determination please come to meeeee!!!

went dbl O with miss lee and her 2 friends yesterday night! it's been so long since i stepped into pub! and i vomitted twice! holy shit. took quite a few pics but sorry, i won't post it up. wahaha. my blood circulation is way too good.

i watched the yes man before heading out today, and it somehow motivate me. hmmm... perhaps i should just say yes to everything?

G'night folks.

service tml later and i probably will head to T1 to grab a few stuff before gg home to catch up on my studies/sleep.

p/s: i am sleeping with mummy tonight. (:

Captions:
1) The yummy curry fish head only cost $10!not much meat though! but it's really damm nice! luckily Sabby and i arrived 5 mins earlier than the lunch crowd if not, we've to queue!
3) Dropped by mr baoz for some snack before heading home!
4) The loots
5) The food
6) In the car with Lewis and Robin, on the way to pick Hao up for dinner.

It's like one month since IAP ends, and i think i've enjoyed myself enough. All feelings are packed up and time to work! Robin's words like finally sink into that thick skull of mine. like finally huh?!

peace.

Tuition and meeting Sandy for dinner later.

=)

Okayyyy. i just checked my results and i must say i am suprise at the grade mdm sing gave me! and yaaaa-hoooo! i am outta NYP! Byebye student life! and i am sooo gonna miss it!

I am going to citysquare with sabby again soon. haha. i wan2 eat my hor fun and etude house is having 50% off storewide sale.

My dinner cost $96 yesterday.spells yummy!!!
Heart-to-heart talk with robin yesterday! priceless. spells wake up call!

alritey. i hope my determination and motivation will really tide me through this time round.

Got a top from uniqlo and i am super in loveee with the cutting. but i hope this is not gonna be a case of same-top-multi colours case again!

tuition later, but before that i am heading PS for some shopping alone.

nice day ahead earthlings!

p/s: i think nick looks like some uncle in the pic! wahaha. opps. he's gonna kill me!

Captions
1)it was raining cats and dogs when i made my way to meet babe! that's explanation for having my cardi on!
3)Babe and i are having major cheeks outbreak. haha. but i am making my way to maple soon!
8)The not very tasty lunch
10)End off with a cup walker! yums! i really need some quality sleep! my eye bags are worsening and i look so old and haggard!!! :(

okay. i was out the whole of saturday! met babe at 11am and ended my day with robin/hao/lewis at 2.30am! cool or what! i conquer my saturday with only 3 hours of sleep! and today, after like 3 hours of sleep, i went for service!needless to say, i just woke up from a pretty much disturbed nap/talked with nick on the phone/dinner-ed. haha!

oh ya! i caught phobia 2 with the guys. freaking scary! with the sound effects and gruesome sights!it's a big achievement for me to actually sit through the show okay!!

my head is still spinning! hopefully i will be ready enough to meet nick later on at night for coffee session at singpost!

=)

i love you,
i miss you,
i need you,
i want you.

I won't deny that i am fuming mad and disappointed.

but...

just who am i to feel that way?

(:

Just got back with nickyboy from 85. i am sooo full! i swear i took a photo of the food before i started pigging out but i can't find it inside my camera! and i actually sit down and watched 2.5hours of telly before nickyboy came. and no prize for guessing the answer though!

AWWWW.

alritey. time to get ready for bed and i will be meeting my girls tomorrow later.

(:

Above are some random pics which are randomly taken when sabrina and i went city square yesterday! it's like damm disappointing can? i spend barely RM50 and that includes food! and i think it can be placed along with vivo which always makes me go back empty handed. after city square, we headed to town to get her perfume and cabbed to bugis for yummy steamboat! i bought sabby to the place where maggie and i always patronise! it's soooooooooooo yummy! and za bo, they provide free desserts now. LOL.

anyway, i will be helping out at cottage pies starting from next month, 2 days per week! yay! i love working there with sabby! and some extra income will be good for my transportation fees!=D

was supposed to meet nick for dinner after his meeting. but guess what time his meeting ended? freaking 11pm! luckily i didn't wait for him! and he promises a 85 supper tml! me loveee.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MISSY SITI!
stay happy and good okayyy!
love you truckloads.
(:

I've got so many softies of different sizes in my room! and at times (like now), it makes me feel so kiddish. i put them all together and told myself i will throw/give away those that i've bought myself and keep the rest that others bought for me. besides putting aside the beanies which a few exes bought for me and a few macdonald happy meal toys, i kept everything!and it's like still so much! how how how? but i cames across a few which are really memorable:

the doggy from minitoons which besty and theresa bought for me to spur me on when i got retained at sec 3.
the chicken little which jonathan bought from the deaf at some pub at boat quay.
the purple hippo which desmond bought from cheers, just bcus i briefly mentioned that i want it. i am so suprised he actually go get it later!
the nemo which robin bought for me on some v-day at geylang from the deaf.
the giantic bear (which he insists is a dog) which robin bought for me on my b'day.
the 2 big sized pinkie and blackie which i received for my 21st!
the tigger which mummy bought for me.
the turtle which babe bought for me, supposedly to be twins with maria jennifer.
the green long ears thingy which maggie got for me. we were like playing with it all the way during our train ride home!
the la bi xiao xin plushie which ah lu got for me during one christmas.
the "be happy" bear my aunt bought for me when i retained at sec 3!
and those small small softie keychains my aunt used to buy for the 3 of us during v-days.
the dog which is wrapped up in a bouquet given to me from rina when i left REEV.

and many many more!

haha. suddenly, i feel so loved. =x

it's saturday, and i've no dates.

visualise this: staying in an air con room doing some reading with rosemary aroma lingering after a nice bubble bathe/hair treatment/mask...

if you ask me, i would describe it as heaven. =)

I had a good straight 8 hours sleep! =D must be all the yummy food i had yesterday! wahaha.

had astons yesterday. verdict? BOTAK JONES IS WAY MUCH BETTER.

so after dinner with sandy, met up with sabrina for like 2 hours and nick came and fecthed me for supper at 85. it was so super yummy! and he promised to bring me for the nepalnese food!!! drools* but the bad thing is, i KO after bathing. so probably there's one more layer of oil in my body! boo!

it's friday again! but anyway, it makes no difference to me anymore. wahaha.enjoy the weekend ahead! ;)

i just realised whenever i blogged, it's past 12am. so meaning this entry is suppose to be for 9/9/09 whereas the one i typed yesterday is meant for 8/9/09. whatever.

so how's the 090909 for you earthlings? mine was really special but i shall be selfish. i am not going to share! haha. whatever it is, praise the lord for all the things happening. and i got the dress! wahohoho. had kobayashi for dinner with my mum just now. and i think their standard really dropped! it used to be a must-have every week during sec school days! now? no thanks.

ok. let's see what's up for later on.
will be heading to the bank with liang in the morning,
tuition in the afternoon,
and meeting sandy for dinner.

ok. this is so random.so, BYE!

=D

Sometimes liang thinks he is sooo funny.

Shellen said:
eh botak jones 2pm open le mah??
Liang~ if sumtin is hard 2 do, den its not worth doin~ says:
hmmm... dun tink so... he botak 2pm come out the sun very hot wil burn his brain
Shellen says:
.......
HAHA

anway, just gt back from supper with that guy.

and this girl is only 15 yrs old and what a powerful vocal she has!


and today is 090909! haha. hopefully something special will happen later on? projectcanary is launching the much anticipated dress at 090909 at 9pm! haha. the black one is gonna be mine!!!

sleeping soon! G'night! or rather G'morning! ;)

I am going away to a secret hideout. Do you want to come along? =)

After 8 years,
i am ditching marks and spencer for himalaya herbals.

I love sundays like that

HItched a ride from dad in the morning to church.
Good breakfast.
Service was cool.
Shop a lil with beloved sandy.
Good lunch.
Met jere for 30 mins or so.

just reached home not long ago.i'm rather worn out! and i am starting to sleep better. say yay please!

=)

It's like 11:57pm and i am heading off to snoozey land soon. Without having a good night sleep for the past few days is so torturous! my eyes are so swollen and puffed up. steamboat with the hommies was great! practically spend the whole day with my mum. =)

and i will be hitting town tml! with brotha and teck. and teck is in a serious shopping mood i tell you! and it's been a year since i last saw brotha and i am glad he asked me out.

it made me recall about the good old secondary school days, with the secondary 4 days as my favourite! ok. u guys can close this page now. haha. i bet this is a long entry.

jere used to send me to the bus stop,and he will take cab to school. ha. he will help me carry my art portfolio and stuff.and we will bicker all the way till bus 81 came. den i will meet tezel and tricia at the very first bus stop after the TPE. den tricia and i will alight at drive 10 for some morning drinks while tezel will continue the journey to school to meet theresa. and after which the 4 of us will "gather" at the study area and make our way to the quadrangle. and with stupid gerald song, we make so much noise and stuff! haha. while on the way back to class, i will drop by brotha's class and talk with him, then dropping by every class to say hi and give hugs before actually arriving at my own. and once i was late for mr low's maths, i was asked to write a 500 words essay why i shouldn't be late for class. ha. u should have seen what i've wrote! lessons proceeded and stuff. den recess time! as usual, the 4 of us! ha.tricia and i will get the drinks while theresa and tezel will get the food! and after we have finish, we made our way to the snacks stall to smuggle some into the class! and we always get away with eating in class. the teachers love us so much luh! hee hee. oh! i suddenly remember the dispute with class 4E2, about being civilised! haha. and you wouldn't want to guess who kept the flame of the conflict alive. x) and i remember 4E5 is a super united class with our super steady mdm cheah. we even go against the stupid discipline mistress together! cool or not!? oh ya! and my short skirt, oversized shirt,earrings,nose stud, dyed hair and colourful polka dots socks always made me the target of that stupid DM/OM. and after school, tezel and i will head to loyang point for our favourite tom yam maggi from god-dad's stall! haha. and how could i forget miss momo! haha. and our favourite place! paya labar's singpost! i still frequent there so much now. i lovee that place. and those sweet little gifts which we always exchanged! and how could secondary school life be complete without letters!? i got a big box of them man! and after school programmes is always the same. either LP/TM with tezel,singpost/HLM/bedok/TM with momo, occassionally out with Mr song as well and meeting robin&junting&jere at night. i miss the 3Ts. =) and the bookshop aunty! always calling me sa ren sa ren (say "kill people" in chinese). apparently she does not know how to pronounce my name luh. and whenever she sees me coming, she will shout "sa ren, u come alrdy huh? faster make way for her if not she will kill you". [direct translation]. the aunty so funny luh. needless to say, my face turned red luh! and whenever she has new stocks, she will share it with us excitedly! so cute can.

i miss those innocent days so much. alot of things had happened, and i wouldn't say i am pleased with what has happened or is happening now. i feel disgusted with myself. i don't know what i am doing anymore. my future seems so bleak. all the plans made beforehand are still waiting to be executed. but i am way too lazy to start somewhere.

marcus said " i don't see the motivated shellen anymore, you must do sth abt it"

nick said" you should get out more. you shouldn't dwell so much on _______"

ken said " it hurts me to see you in this state. where's the shellen everyone likes?"

ok. i am like so emo now can. i hate myself for this too. and i dun like to see the worried looks plastered on my girls' pretty faces. i am so sorry that i've become sucha bitter gourd!

alright...
time to wake up.
time to seriously plan.
time to fulfill those rejected dates.
time to stop being an anti social freak.
time to let go of the past.
time to stop my complains and whines
time to let go of the drifting log.
time to actually start living.

i've wasted 4 yrs. it's more than enough.

NB. i am awake at inhuman hours - again.

steamboat feast later. me love.

You're just a piece of drifting log.

Just one of these days, i am just gonna booked myself into a luxurious hotel for a good night sleep! i am so freaking tired. for someone who sleeps at 5-ish to be awake at 7-ish is a nightmare. what's up with the cars horning at sucha early hours? and after that many mr garung gunis will make their way here. T_T i am so deprived of sleep!

i was packing my wardrobe yesterday and i threw out lots of stuff! mostly brand new though. =( so wasteful. and online shopping really make my pockets empty. i think you girls should check out the vanessa sweetheart top from projectcanary. i think it's a very sweet piece. i got one for myself. and they're coming up with the dress version too! i can't wait to lay my hands on that!

i am gonna do my hair a big favour later but i will probably sleep my time away at Ruth's. and after that will be meeting my aunt and coussie for dinner at Hans.

note to self, get that white navy blue cardi from uniqlo. i am so in love with the black one i bought last week!

bye people!

Just got back from bak kut teh supper with robin and liang. ha. so much for whining about the scale moving to the right. Mummy ain't happy that i am always out till the wee hours for the past 12345678910 ten days. Okay. I promised to stay at home tml later.

When reality sinks in, it's so scary.

Siti, i am way too lazy to change the skin! wahaha. ;)