A post inspired after reading "Tuesdays with Morrie"

i finally got my copy of Tuesdays with Morrie replaced when i went borders with robin yesterday. i really like this book. that guy said i'm insane to get the same book twice. but don't you guys just agree with me that, that this book is really a good one? out of all Mitch Albom's works, i really love this to tiny bits and i finished the book in one seating last night.

Recently, there seems to be alot of rumours and assumptions flying around me.but who's to blame? of course there's nth wrong, it's all part of human nature yeah? we assume this, assume that. sometimes, it results in a soured relationship with the parties involved. or even resorting to wear a mask when comes face to face with them. but the thing is, what's the point? shouldn't we believe in our own instincts and feelings? for instance,you know a particular person won't do such a thing. and just because of some rumours your beliefs changed. does it even sound logical in the first place? well, as mentioned before, you can label me as "stupid" or "naive". seriously, i don't care anymore. i'm sick of being manipulated.

some of us have been hurt before and may not have any more faith in certain things. for me, i don't believe in happily ever after anymore. or is it that when one reaches certain age the picture-perfect marriage life does not exist anymore? (if you know, enlighten me pls) i don't even dare to think about it now. what happened to the "i want to get married by 27 years old"? haha. ;) it's like i get really disgusted when i walked past jewellery stores and see those sparkling diamonds on the bands. i get annoyed whenever there's a baby/toddler misbehaving in public places.

but after i read the book, it seems to have washed off all the anger/hatred/impatience within me. it restores my faith in human kind. may sound ironic, but to me, it's not.

for puss, till date, i believe u've your reasons and i assure you i won't be swayed by what you-know-who said. i believe you will tell me the reason behind it one day.

and as for YOU, i will believe what u've said even though it doesn't sounds very realistic. i'm sorry i've doubted and bombarded you with silly questions but i can't help it due to you-know-why. all i've to say, all u've to say are said. and it doesn't to work out, there's nth much to be done anymore. i accept and respect your decision. silly of me to still habour the hope that you will come coax me again like usual.

and for log, i know no matter what i said, it won't make you feel any better or have faith (maybe you should really try sitting down to read that "how that old man dies" book. ;)) in ______ again. after so many tries to persuade you, i still want to do it again. don't stereotype. not all are the same. not all failures are repetitive. you gotta believe in yourself. follow your dreams and i foresee you will make it one day.

but den again, who's has the right to define what's wrong or right?

robin said, picture this:
your sister got raped. you shot the rapist dead. personally, that's the absolute correct thing to do. but in the eyes of the law, you won't get any sympathy or empathy. you get the death sentence or get jailed for manslaughter.

what i m trying to say is, life's too short to bear any anger/hatred for long. learn to put that baggage down, learn to forgive,learn to love from the heart. no matter what others say or comment, it's their own problem. you still have your own life to look after. stay strong to your faith. be focus in more meaningful things in life. if someone has hurt you so bad, just smile and wish them all the best.

whatever it is, let bygones be bygones.

from today onwards, i won't let anything nor anyone swayed my stand. i will stand firm even i might become the laughing stock. at least, i'm much happier this way. if i get upset over such issues again, may my pinkie get stolen.

with this,i rest my case.

truckload of love,
shellen.

p/s: just imagine u're gonna die tml, 're you still gonna be pissed by the old aunty who pushed you while boarding the mrt at 6.30pm on a wednesday?